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Ernesto Cardenal's ![]() Lord She dreamed when she was little that she was naked in a church and she had to walk on tiptoe so as not to step on their heads. You know our dreams better than the psychiatrists. Church, home, cave, all represent the security of the womb but something else too The heads are her fans, that's clear (the mass of heads in the dark under the beam of light). But the temple isn't the studios of 20th Century-Fox. The temple—of marble and gold—is the temple of her body in which the Son of Man stands whip in hand driving out the studio bosses of 20th Century-Fox who made Your house of prayer a den of thieves. Lord in this world polluted with sin and radioactivity You won't blame it all on a shopgirl who, like any other shopgirl, dreamed of being a star. Her dream just became a reality (but like Technicolor's reality). She only acted according to the script we gave her —the story of our own lives. And it was an absurd script. Forgive her, Lord, and forgive us for our 20th Century for this Colossal Super-Production on which we all have worked. She hungered for love and we offered her tranquilizers. For her despair, because we're not saints Psychoanalysis was recommended to her. Remember, Lord, her growing fear of the camera and her hatred of makeup—insisting on fresh makeup for each scene— and how the terror kept building up in her and making her late to the studios. Like any other shopgirl she dreamed of being a star. And her life was unreal like a dream that a psychiatrist interprets and files. ![]() Her romances were a kiss with closed eyes The film ended without the final kiss. She was found dead in her bed with her hand on the phone. And the detectives never learned who she was going to call. She was like someone who had dialed the number of the only friendly voice and only heard the voice of a recording that says: WRONG NUMBER. Or like someone who had been wounded by gangsters reaching for a disconnected phone. Lord whoever it might have been that she was going to call and didn't call (and maybe it was no one or Someone whose number isn't in the Los Angeles phonebook) ![]() |